I graduated college and there is one question I am asked more than any other.
What do you plan to do now? A degree is good, but what is the value of a degree unused?
I see the point. We need a perceivable reward ($$ or just a little reassurance $$), that when our work is done, we walk away with more than we started with. Why commit to something strenuous and time consuming, like school, if there is no reward, like a salary?
I hear this question and I want to disappear. But I can’t. So instead I wonder what it is I need to say to you to prove that the system has worked favorably for me.
Wondering I go…and I am here. Back to long ago. Back to when I did things, just because.
Because I was curious, interested, it made sense, I was implosive, and I hadn’t done it before…
Because I allowed my emotions to motivate my actions, not my perception of worth and value…
Okay, I’m back. And I have a question for you: What if other living things based their actions on rewards, as we do?
Can you imagine compensating a tree for the work required to bloom? What about the sun for shining, a seed for sprouting, a baby for growing?
Why is it so ridiculous to project these expectations on nature? “Because nature intrinsically acts. Because nature just is. ”
So, what does that make us? If not nature, are we then machine? Are we moving to become cold and hollow atoms, blind to the emotional aspect of our choices only to grow more fixated on the monetary worth and societal praise of our actions?
Tonight the moon is full and rising over a land filled with spring. Under it I confess: I never want to do another thing in my life but be his mom. To learn everyday along side him. I may wear several hats to support him, but always, I will be his teacher. If I don’t, I feel I may wither away and fold into the earth where I came from.
Overlooked, and underrated, it is the only job for me.